So, how was YOUR day?

[Panek]

I picked up like-new Turtle Beach Santa Cruz sound card from the post office today.

I shelled out 50 US bucks for it on eBay.
The reason why I bought it was that I started to notice more and more of this "lossless audio" craze - people tolerating nothing else than the .flac or .wav formats, dissin' mp3s, etc. I like good audio (but I am not a complete audiophile), so I read a couple of reviews, many of them said that this card is great for .flac's and stuff.

I got it, installed it, then tested some .flac files vs. mp3's.

And you know what?

No difference. Or maybe I can't set it up correctly?

Anyway, it will still be very good when it comes to recording (which I do very often with my bass), also has a ton of neat effects/options. I'm still satisfied with the card, but from what I call the "FLAC Craze" I expected mind-blowing audio, instead I got practically nothing.

Anyway, besides a short trip to my local post office, my day has been uneventful.

[Cohen's Masterpiece]

I picked up like-new Turtle Beach Santa Cruz sound card from the post office today.

I shelled out 50 US bucks for it on eBay.
The reason why I bought it was that I started to notice more and more of this "lossless audio" craze - people tolerating nothing else than the .flac or .wav formats, dissin' mp3s, etc. I like good audio (but I am not a complete audiophile), so I read a couple of reviews, many of them said that this card is great for .flac's and stuff.

I got it, installed it, then tested some .flac files vs. mp3's.

And you know what?

No difference. Or maybe I can't set it up correctly?

Anyway, it will still be very good when it comes to recording (which I do very often with my bass), also has a ton of neat effects/options. I'm still satisfied with the card, but from what I call the "FLAC Craze" I expected mind-blowing audio, instead I got practically nothing.

Anyway, besides a short trip to my local post office, my day has been uneventful.

that's really a pain

[Panek]

that's really a pain

Yep, because I still can't think of any reason why those "mp3 haters" act like that. I have many albums in .flac, and there's no difference between my on-board sound and the card. Unless somebody knows how to set everything up and will point me in the right direction.

But like I said, no money wasted, because the card is great and will work nicely with some audio editing software (which I use frequently)

[vitiis]

Been watching horror movies all day. Who can complain.

[BioShock Freak]

Been watching horror movies all day. Who can complain.

Horror movies are awesome!

I went to the Mall today, again, and got me some more make up. I bought a few MAC shades yesterday and a couple more today. Also got a new set of make up brushes from Chanel. Make up is my biggest weakness.
Other than that, it's been a good day. I finally got to fix my issues with my friend so I'm in a better mood than before.

~Mari.

[Puddle]

Yay! We're all happy!

[Hatesink]

[BioShock Freak]

Yay! We're all happy!

Yay! So am I.

It's 4am in the morning and I haven't been able to sleep. Must have something to do with those 5 cups of coffee I downed a few hours ago. O_O
I'll be heading to bed soon, though, I wanna try to get up early and go for a nice walk. Already I feel it's gonna be a good day, so I'm happy. How's everyone else doing this fine morning?

~Mari.

[Atlas.]

Im glad to hear that things are getting better for you now Mari Good that you have sorted that out

Yay! We're all happy!

Nope... meh nevermind

Am back to work at uni again now Not really any work to do so far cause its only the first week back. So far just have to do a graph for kinetics in chemistry. Unless i have work to do for the practical on friday first i cant remember. The timetables look really busy again, loads of lab reports to do, tutorial and discussion sessions, computer programming (for some reason) and loads of practicals. Other than that theres nothing to do here... good that i at least have here to come on

[thesuperjman]

far from entertaining. well eh idk. i got to watch some fresh prince. but that was the most exciting thing today.

[E.Bouncer]

well I finally found portal and have been playing about 20% over the lethal human dosage of game playing so I am gonna go get a med pack and probly some EVE hypos... and just hope that the PC doesnt somehow create a portal and vanish

anyway I have to start eating breakfast again but only cause it is meant to be the most important meal of the day... no I am not anorexic either so dont worry (unless nobody here would worry which in that case just disregard the last sentence)


~We all make choices, but in the end our choices make us~

[Katfather]

Worse week in my life, which considering how bad my life was, saying a lot. A death, a breaking of a promise for the first time in my life, and now today something worse. Not whining (well, maybe a little). Just want to explain why I haven't been here for a little bit, and why I won't be back for a little while more.. Sorry, but I can't be Katfather without humor, and I have little humor right now. Sorry for the down trip, but this is the closest I can come to screaming. Take care. Like a bad penny, I'll be back..
Latine loqui coactus sum..

Cogito Ergo Doleo




Aliquando et insanire iucundum est


Vah! Denuone Latine loquebar? Me ineptum. Interdum modo elabitur..

[Hatesink]

Worse week in my life, which considering how bad my life was, saying a lot. A death, a breaking of a promise for the first time in my life, and now today something worse. Not whining (well, maybe a little). Just want to explain why I haven't been here for a little bit, and why I won't be back for a little while more.. Sorry, but I can't be Katfather without humor, and I have little humor right now. Sorry for the down trip, but this is the closest I can come to screaming. Take care. Like a bad penny, I'll be back..
Latine loqui coactus sum..

Cogito Ergo Doleo




Aliquando et insanire iucundum est


Vah! Denuone Latine loquebar? Me ineptum. Interdum modo elabitur..

Are you okay?

Do you have someone to talk to about how you're feeling?

Loss, especially grief, generally causes a feeling of depression, or deeper depression if you're already depressed. The horrible thing is that a lot of the time a person can't seem to see beyond the feeling when really it's just temporary.

I write letters to myself to read when I'm in that state, telling myself that although I probably don't even believe my own words right now, this too will pass, and faster if I take the opportunity to deal with it, heal and get better as and when I'm ready...

...you could borrow my letter (I don't mean literally, but figuratively speaking), it basically just says that even though you might not believe it right now this too shall pass. The clouds can clear to let the sunshine through...

...providing you have the time and a way to rest, relax and heal...

...if you need to talk about what's going on with you P.M. me.

I've just had a rough spell but I've taken a couple of days to relax and unwind and I'm getting back to things now— eating again, exercising. I've got college tonight too so I've got to get myself cleaned up.

[Bioshocking123]

Wow, I'm really sorry, Katfather. You'll be dearly missed in your absence. A big thumbs up to Hatesink for those kind words of advice... Being a 14 year old who is moderatley content, I sadly do not have much advice. Keep your head up, and you'll ride out of this rut with style.

[BioShock Freak]

Great advice, Hatesink. And nicely put, Bioshocking.
I, too, have not much to say. I just hope everything's ok with you, Katfather. A lot of us miss you and your awesome stories, so don't be gone for too long.

As far as my day goes, well, I haven't slept all night. I'm such an insomniac! I hate it too because I like being up early, but I end up waking up at noon after going to bed at 6-7am. Unfortunately, my mind still hasn't gone back to normal ever since my last job. I used to work the graveyard shift so that screwed me up pretty bad. And it's been over a year!
I'm gonna try to get some sleep now because I'm VERY tired and VERY sleepy. Hope your guys' days are better than mine.

~Mari.

[thesuperjman]

KF, even Hatesink -and all else are invited-. if you want, you canlisten to this song on my myspace if you want. i do when im feelin down. its a good song. goes with what hatesink was sayin earlier too.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm...endID=34284001

[Katfather]

Hey Guys.. I just realized I owe you all an apology. Not only for dumping all my sad sack **** on you (again!), but I had no right to tell you all my woes without actually telling you them! If someone did that to me, I'd go crazy (yeah, short trip, but still). So here goes: At the end of the last week Tony, that 12 year old boy that I won the bioshock poster for died in my arms at the hospital he was living in (he had cancer). One of the last things he did was talk about Rapture and talk about the poster and eat a birthday cake I made for him. Thanks so much Liz for sending it: he loved it.
Ok, that sucked and his funeral was a lousy way to begin the new week, but more came. My bank account was cleared out by someone who worked at the publishing house who buys my stuff, somehow taking money out instead of putting payment in. The company has offered to repay me, but says they can't do any thing until next month when their insurance agrees, so until then I'm totally broke! And of course, right after that i get a message from someone very close to me begging for some much needed medical money. In the meantime my pain medicine has stopped working and I'm waking up four times a night screaming in pain(and, of course i don't have money for Doctor or new medicine).I'm also trying this week to finally get credit for all those books I "ghost wrote' under other writers names, but every one's against me on it and been threatened by lawyers all week and my agent screaming at me "you need the money more now than ever! keep your mouth shut!", So I have to pick between fame or feeding.
And to top it off, I broke my promise to Panek and didn't remember to write that article for him. It may not seem much to any of you, but it's the first time I broke a promise and I feel like the lowest scum on Earth. I'm sorry panek..
So that's why I'm staying away for awhile. I'm too scared that I'll write something stupid that'll hurt someone for awhile. I'm so hurt and angry that I'm sure I'll do it, so better I keep my mouth shut for a while..
Oh, the Latin? I have no idea why I did that. I cuss in Latin sometimes just to feel better. or maybe I was just showing off as a high. Here's the translations:

Latine loqui coactus sum
- I have this compulsion to speak Latin

Cogito Ergo Doleo
- I think therefore I am depressed

Aliquando et insanire iucundum est
- It is sometimes pleasant
even to act like a madman (my favorite)

Vah! Denuone Latine loquebar? Me ineptum. Interdum modo elabitur
- Oh! Was I speaking Latin again? Silly me. Sometimes it just sort of slips out ..

So that's almost the whole story and I hope you can forgive the whining. After a decent time of mourning and moaning I'll be back if you still want me. Take care, and thanks for all the kind words!

[Hatesink]

Katfather, it sounds like you're really having a rough time...

...although hitting you up with a bunch of pop-psychology kind of feels reduntant to me right now, counter-intuitively, intellectually, I know that really it's just the sugar that helps the medicine go down, and that it's just that kind of thing that can be the beginning of the way back to regular status quo (providing you get the right stuff)...

...the money and health hassles are bad enough and it's pretty rough that you have those to deal with as well right at this time.

The really important thing is to acknowledge your feelings, feel them for as long as is necessary for your health and wellbeing, and then to let them go. It's important to feel these feelings but it's also important to 'get closure' within an appropriate time frame and in appropriate ways...

...I used to hold on to my grief and pain partly because I didn't want to stop loving the people, places and things I needed to let go of in order to regain my health...

...But doing that is really unhealthy, since the longer you spend running those thought processes the more and more ingrained they become, which risks the state becoming perminant (every time we think or act a dendrite is formed between brain cells to record/learn the act, be it a movement, a behaviour or way of thinking (often the 'primal' body doesn't care or doesn't know what's an appropriate way to feel or act within the context of our modern society ( which is why it's important to work towards eventually taking conscious, intellectual control of what's happening))...

...With enough repetition of thought or action a large enough number of these dendrites are formed to cause the act and it's subsequent emotional 'stimulus response' to become habituated, and in the case of the depressive mindset this can mean a downward spiral that's quite potentially fatal (the irony is depression is the most common and probably the easiest to treat of all of mans emotional woes.)

I'd suggest, if you can (and I know the money's an issue), try to get some kind of grief counselling to help you through. At this time with the kind of experiences you're dealing with and with all of them impacting you at the same time a little money spent on some grief counselling (or even just some general basic counselling to get you through and help you set a new direction) could very well be — considering that it can short-circuit a process who's potential damage is absolutely catastrophic — the most cost-effective use of your money you'll ever make.

My own input (based on my experience) is this: rather than try to prove out your love and your feeling of loss with extended grieving, instead, feel just the stuff you need to feel to come to terms with the things you need to come to terms with to get well again and then then prove out your love with positive, constructive action that'll do you (and maybe even others) good. For example (and this is just an example) maybe set the goal of learning about and dealing with these emotions with a view to helping others with similar problems or visiting with sick strangers, and with the right experience you maybe could even write a 'how to' about dealing with this kind of thing. My own experience has shown me that it's just as important to acknowledge and feel the negative (in appropriate ways in an appropriate time-frame) as it is to look for and experience the positives.

I know what you mean about posting stuff that's maybe inapropriate. I've been dealing with a few things in recent months that have really bent me out of shape, and I'm all too aware that sometimes you don't really have a perspective on the intensity of the expression of what you're feeling...

...I worry about that a lot. I feel guilty sometimes, because of what I post here. I suffer with depression, arguably partly because I learned (probably incorrectly) that turning my anger in on myself could help me to avoid short-term discomfort. That kind of thing can make a person very self-absorbed sometimes, which in turn can alter perspective in ways that are problematic...

...Most of the time I post my problems here I feel like I'm basically talking to myself, with the exception that there's a slim chance that somebody, or the universe, or a higher power, or humanity's collective consciousness (or whatever or whoever) might be listening...

...because sometimes I just need to talk.

[Bioshocking123]

Well, first of all, Katfather, thank you for sharing what is happening. Talking about it is the first thing that you need to do to recover. Secondly, I am quite sorry that things are horrid right now in your life. The only advice I can give, is to listen to Hatesink.

Hatesink, you rock at giving advice, just saying.


As for me, I am back from my mysterious day at.... Ahem... Disneyland. But I feel like a monster for mentioning that now while everybody is having a depressing day.

[thesuperjman]

everybody? just a few. but the magnitude does solemn the mood a bit.

how was disney land? ive only been to disney world (love it).
today i didnt do much. "pwned", as they say, on call of duty 4, chilled a bit, and then saw Inkheart tonight, and i liked it. also i saw the new underworld last night and that was well done too.

[Bioshocking123]

everybody? just a few. but the magnitude does solemn the mood a bit.

how was disney land? ive only been to disney world (love it).
today i didnt do much. "pwned", as they say, on call of duty 4, chilled a bit, and then saw Inkheart tonight, and i liked it. also i saw the new underworld last night and that was well done too.

Disneyland+California Adventure was... FTW. And by everybody, I meant the people who had posted earlier (Hatesink, KF, Me...) :S

[ATLAS IS WATCHING]

Disneyland+California Adventure was... FTW. And by everybody, I meant the people who had posted earlier (Hatesink, KF, Me...) :S

thats cool, what rides did you go to? my day was okay, i went to play basketball in the park then i went to subway, then i went home playing fallout 3

[Katfather]

Disneyland+California Adventure was... FTW. And by everybody, I meant the people who had posted earlier (Hatesink, KF, Me...) :S

There's nothing the matter with saying you're having a good time bioshocky. It makes me feel good to hear about it. Fly Tinkerbell, fly!

(Now, where did I put that can of RAID....?)

[Bioshocking123]

There's nothing the matter with saying you're having a good time bioshocky. It makes me feel good to hear about it. Fly Tinkerbell, fly!

(Now, where did I put that can of RAID....?)

NO! Fly Tink! The Katfather is after you!

Lol, here's what did.
-Got there, It was raining. I was wearing a very un-waterproof sweater. lol
-Shoes got soaked, we didn't care, instead, we jumped in puddles.
-Pretty much nobody was there. Amazing.
-Walked down Main Street, USA in the rain. So cool...
-Indiana Jones (2 Times, no line, I looked right into the Idol's eye, even though I wasn't supposed to )
-Splash Mountain (My uncle told my brother to sit in the front because the water would cascade around him, and not on him... Oh, the humor. )
-Stopped raining.
-Went to California Adventure
-Rode Tower of Terror. (When the usher was like, "do you have any last requests before entering you rooms?" All creepy like, I piped up and asked, "Can I have a cupcake?" Everybody laughed. )
-Rode it again
-Took pictures
-Went to the pier
-Ate Cotton Candy
-Rode California Screaming.
-Rode this weird Bee Orange Swing thing...
-Bought a souveneer
-Went back to Disneyland
-Rode Space Mountian
-Rode the Matterhorn
-Annoyed little kids
-Took the Trolley back to Main Street
-Took pictures
-Went to Bubba Gump's this cool Shrimp place, named and themed after the movie Forrest Gump. Coolest place ever.
-Fell asleep on the way to my Grandparent's house, slept over, celebrated my G-Pa's 82nd B-Day.
-Came home.
The end.

[BioShock Freak]

Wow! Sounds like you had an awesome day! I'm glad you had fun. I can't wait to go back to Universal Studios.
And I'm so sorry for what happened Katfather. (Btw, I got your PM a little too late, so sorry about that too. I feel horrible. )

My day's been pretty bleh. I woke up late with a huge headache. (I was a bit hungover. )
My friend/roomie was gone and I later found out he took off to Modesto, CA to go see his best friend's new-born baby. I was SO upset because I wanted to go so bad but he left without me. I wanted to see the new baby too. But nooooo he took off without me and said he "didn't wanna wake me up".
So now, I'm stuck at home, bored, with nothing to do. Ah well, at least I kept myelf busy watching Da Vinci Code and now I'm watching Cast Away. "WILSOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!" I always cry at that scene.
P.S., we can post more than 6 smilies now! Lol.

~Mari.

[Bioshocking123]

P.S., we can post more than 6 smilies now! Lol.

~Mari.

I noticed. Hoo-rah, they decided that we were responsible with our smilies...
Lol, Mari, every year, my dad's side of the family (including my uncle Paul who took us to Disneyland), go tubing down the Current River in Missouri, I think is the state, and anyway, when one of us drifts away from the group, my uncles and dad yell at the top of their voices, "WIIIIILLLLLSOOOON!" Oh, god, we die laughing every time.

[ATLAS IS WATCHING]

sounded like you had a fun time bioshocking
and when you said you went to the gubba gump place i understood
what you meant since i watched forset gump, lol funny movie.
oh i love that splash mountain ride

[LookBehindU]

^what an odd coincidence. im watching that movie right now

[ATLAS IS WATCHING]

^what an odd coincidence. im watching that movie right now

AWESOME! HIGH FIVE!

[thesuperjman]

-Rode Tower of Terror. (When the usher was like, "do you have any last requests before entering you rooms?" All creepy like, I piped up and asked, "Can I have a cupcake?" Everybody laughed. )

lol, you would.

[Asherah]

My day's been great. After sharing a xbox 360 for a couple of years with my brother I finally got my own. The final straw came when he got xbox live for christmas and since than hasn't let me play on it. Since I can't live with out my videogames I decided to dig out some money I've been saving and solve the little problem once and for all.

[Bioshocking123]

@ thesuperjman
Oh, yes. I did. Then natuarally, my brother shot rays of "Oh my gosh you are so annoying" rays at me, but it was okay, because stangers we laughing too.

Oh, that reminds me, my uncle and I were trying to get people to wave at us, but none of them did. We must have waved to 100 people while on the train alone, maybe 5 waved. It was sad. From now on, if sombody waves in my general direction, I am waving back. lol...

[BioShock Freak]

I noticed. Hoo-rah, they decided that we were responsible with our smilies...
Lol, Mari, every year, my dad's side of the family (including my uncle Paul who took us to Disneyland), go tubing down the Current River in Missouri, I think is the state, and anyway, when one of us drifts away from the group, my uncles and dad yell at the top of their voices, "WIIIIILLLLLSOOOON!" Oh, god, we die laughing every time.

Awww. LOL! That's funny.

^what an odd coincidence. im watching that movie right now

TNT HD? Yeah, it's still on. Darn movie's so long! Lol. It's sad, though. But I like it. It's almost over, too.
~Mari.

[Bioshocking123]

@ Asherah,
Is your avatar a lie?

[FtRapture]

@ Asherah,
Is your avatar a lie?

Ummm no it's cake...

[Bioshocking123]

Ummm no it's cake...

Portal joke. "The cake is a lie..."
She says is it all the time...

[FtRapture]

Yeah I understand the joke :\

I was just being silly.

[Bioshocking123]

Yeah I understand the joke :\

I was just being silly.

Oh, heh. I didn't catch that humor there... Thanks for clearing that up.

[LookBehindU]

@ Asherah,
Is your avatar a lie?

no actually.... ITS A TRAP!!!

[Atlas.]

welcome back Bioshocking


Meh nothing but problems for me lately as usual. Spent ages working on my bike and the battery to find that after all that work its exactly the same and still wont start. Tried starting the engine while the battery was in the bike charging but still no difference. Still dont know if its the battery (possible it doesnt quite have a high enough voltage) or could be the carbs, fuel system, spark plugs or the fuse. I like working on it but it was a waste of time and made no difference. Need to try and get someone round to help with it cause ive had enough at the moment, no point me messing about when i dont know what im doing. Then spent the night waiting on a confirmation email with my code coming for a antivirus program i bought last night via download and still the email hasnt come yet

Anything that can go wrong for me always does. Meh nevermind no point in getting into things