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. My advice, find something you really like doing and do it. I love history, ergo I learn about history in my spare time, and I have a LOT of spare time. There, you are no longer doing what you really like doing yet, feeling bad about it. Instead you are learning and doing what you like doing and convincing yourself it will work out in the end. Like, I had this friend that loved Warhammer 40k, so I decided to take up Flames of War. You get a set of these 1 cm long figures that all cost 60 dollars and you gotta paint these S.O.B.s, it was hard, but fun until I realized this entire hobby is overpriced and I suck at it. 270 dollars down the drain. Ah well.